Monday, September 25, 2006

out of zambia

A little transit time in Bangkok - why not post a blog? My son (Martin) and I are returning from 18 days in Africa where I participated in the Pastors Book Project - the brainchild of visionary SIM-er Jim Mason. 24 conferences over 4months in 19 locations distributing a quality library of 65 books (and 2 CDs) to 7000 pastors. I participated in Nigeria in 1997 and the vision has rolled around Africa (and India) and when invited to come back for Zambia, I jumped at it...

Here are some of my emotions from the time in Zambia:

anger
Well - in transit in Nairobi airport to be exact on touch down in Africa. My first impression was the new brand of colonialism. Whitney Houston sang five songs before dawn on the radio being played throughout the airport. The images in the shops were drawn from the catwalks of Europe (what happened to African beauty?) ... and CNN in the cafe seemed so intrusive. Why don't they create a version just for the States and then one for the world? The obsession with 9/11 and the individualised photos of those who had died in Iraq seemed so inappropriate - even insensitive - given Africa's problems. Why doesn't George Bush start asking the right question - "Why do they hate us so much?" ... and stop rabbiting on about "preserving our way of life" as a justification for war? I thought such justification had more to do with preserving justice than preserving a way of life? He might even find that altering 'a way of life' might actually lessen the 'hatred' (not to mention the amount of money spent on arms). The CNN I saw can only be fueling the hatred...

joy
A decisive moment in my call from God was being rivetted to John Stott doing 50+minute biblical expositions when I was 19yrs old. So I have always been partial to such an approach and enjoyed forays into it myself - usually overseas as there ain't much of a market for such ministry in the NZ Baptist scene! So to be faced with the opportunity to 'let my expository hair down' with a few hundred Zambian pastors - hungry, poor, grateful - was such a delight. Then to share the teaching with two Zambian pastors - Albert Mukanga and Gilbert Masonde - and sit 'under' them added to the delight. Such rapport with their people - and what a joy-ful, resilient, and capable bunch. I took a huge map of Zambia with me and had participants sign the map in the place where they were pastoring ... now I must remember to pray for them.

embarassment
I left my ties at home! I felt under-dressed and it raised that old hoary issue for Kiwi Christians: are we just a bit too careless and sloppy and disrespectful in the way we walk with God and worship him? I have recently heard UK immigrants speak of our lack of reverence in church. It is a blind spot. Where exactly has the 'fear of God' gone? David Wells' decade-old words continue to ring in my ears as the heart of the issue: 'the transcendent God has been lost; the immanent God has been abused'. And, of course 'ties or no-ties' is not the issue at all - but it was the presenting issue for me in Zambia.

fear
It didn't help that the guy picking us up from Lusaka airport told us the story of his car-jacking in the exact place where it had happened. He showed us the bullet hole below his right shoulder blade and then the other adjacent to his left nipple ... and was wearing the shirt/jumper with the bullet holes to match. We struggled to get past the letter box that first night! But we soon relaxed... until a week later in a very gloomy twilight in downtown Lusaka our driver left us in a state of the art Toyota 4WD - unlocked and with keys in the ignition - while he popped out to do some shopping. UGH! I succumbed to locking the doors...

thrill
Crossing the Zambezi River at the exact point where four nations meet - unique in the world - was a special thrill for me. For the record: Zimbabwe, Zambia, Namibia, and Botswana.
Being able to track down Martin's sponsored child, Nchumunya ... the dear boy was just overwhelmed and in shock much of the time - but not his mum! She rushed into the room, made a beeline for Martin, and drowned him in a hug. That picture will be with me forever. A mother's love and gratitude... At one point I tried to distribute some balloons to the school children. I was mobbed. There was almost a riot. But it was not a riot of greed, but a riot of sheer exuberance. The happiest faces I have seen in life adorn the faces of the 'poorest of the poor' children. While that has a thrill attached to it, it is also very sobering...

distress
What can you say about hearing first-hand stories of the HIV/AIDS pandemic? Many of the pastors at the conferences were having an AIDS-funeral each week. Imagine the pastoral care before and after that event and the enormous load on those pastors! Life expectancy for men in Zambia has dropped from 62 to 47 since AIDS hit the scene. I hardly saw a grey hair! A special session on HIV/AIDS was included in the programme for a pastors' conference!
I committed myself to reading Martin Meredith's The State of Africa (Simon&Schuster, 2006) while I was away. 700pages - just 25 to go! The story of the 50years since independence. What a sad, sad story! It is just so distressing. One quote will do (but I may return later to this book!): "By the end of the 1980s, not a single African head of state in three decades had allowed himself to be voted out of office. Of some 150 heads of state who had trodden the African stage, only six had voluntarily relinquished power." (378-379). And that is only part of a story of greed, fear, corruption, and power. And the former colonial nations (and their 'scramble for africa') together with other contemporary Western countries are hardly squeaky clean in it all.
I am a deep believer in preaching being about a faithfulness to the TEXT as well as to the CONTEXT. Preaching through 1Peter and trying to respect the African context was a challenge I just could not meet adequately. It is too hard - particularly with that letter.

awe
When God makes African children he is at his very best. Every single one of them is exquisitely formed and just so, so beautiful. Without exception! I caught myself staring at times... Then there are those beautiful animals we saw in Chobe Park in Botswana: the giraffe and elephant standout - one with a delicate gracefulness about them, the other with a more lumbering approach ... but it is still gracefulness nonetheless.
I remember the brightness of the flowers in arid and sandy Israel. Here in Africa is another example of how God seems to invest the greatest beauty in the harshest environments.

pride
I was so proud of my boy Martin. Can I add that one too? He has such an ease as he moves across cultures, making friends comes so naturally to him. I learned a lot by watching him in action. He has loved Africa since he was a small boy (and knows heaps about it) - and this trip was a dream come true for him.

Flight TG989 to Auckland beckons - and a return to life and work where God has placed us both.

nice chatting

Paul Windsor

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

the gospel of community?

When the energy drains out of a seminar I am leading, I know just where the solution lies. I put three words on the whiteboard and ask people to put them in the right order: "belonging", "believing", "behaving". One of the great discussion-starters...

It is a bit unfair, but you could make a case that the generation of my parents left us with the impression that the order was 'behaving' then 'believing' then 'belonging'. And now along comes the emerging generation and they want to reverse that order: 'belonging' then 'believing' then 'behaving'.

What do you make of this?

If I understand the way the word 'belonging' is used today, it is a community word. If people are to believe, they first need to feel like they belong. It is all about relationships... The crucial step in evangelism is creating a sense of community before there is too much talk of believing anything. Is that fair?

If it is I have some questions! If there can be a belonging before there is a believing how does that belonging compare with the belonging that believing creates? You better read that one again! Surely that first belonging can only be a pale imitation of the second belonging? So why is it receiving so much emphasis today - to the detriment of the second belonging?

And where is the gospel in this? Doesn't the gospel start with believing - by confessing, repenting, trusting etc? "As you come to him, the Living Stone (Christ) ... you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house." (1Peter2:4a, 5a) Surely this suggests that there is a believing first and foremost and as people believe and move towards Jesus they find out that they end up hanging around others who are doing the same and before long, they discover community together - all because the primary movement was towards Christ and not initially towards each other.

I remain unsure about the priority which this community - or, that pre-believing belonging - is receiving today. It seems to have become the key to mission. Community. Community. Community. Tip of everybody's tongue. Top of everybody's strategy. People go on and on about it. And I don't notice that much Godwardness about it as the focus seems to be on relationships with each other. At times it sounds like it has become its own gospel, eclipsing the other gospel. But community is a consequence of the gospel; it is not the gospel.

At best I could embrace an order that looks something like this:
"belonging then believing then BELONGING then behaving"

And isn't it interesting that with the letter to the Romans - that clearest of clear presentations of the gospel - Paul seems to follow this order: 'believing' (ch1-4) then 'belonging' (ch5-11) and then 'behaving' (ch12-15)??

nice chatting

Paul Windsor

Sunday, September 03, 2006

MK musing

I am a missionary-kid (MK). I am forever grateful to my parents for growing me up in India. Lots of reasons - but most important of all it helped me become an internationalist.

With my white face and blond hair being such a cultural oddity, I grew up affirming the languages and cultures of peoples who looked unlike me. Racism became repugnant. And a residue of this still remains... I don't really understand patriotism. Even that Kiwi penchant for Aussie-bashing (not to mention that Canterbury penchant for parochialism!) is a struggle. When God looks down from heaven he doesn't see national boundaries, so why should I?

With that weekly walk to church taking me within reach of every major world religion, I grew up taking other peoples' beliefs seriously - including my own. Pluralism became ubiquitous. And a residue of this still remains ... My beliefs always had other beliefs to push against. Today I don't understand why the unique Jesus who is Lord of all so easily becomes for us a clip-on Jesus who is Lord of little. Is he the way, the truth, the life - or isn't he?

With the faces of poverty interrupting the simplest of life's routines, I grew up being scarred by those images of the poorest of the poor. Consumerism became offensive. And a residue of this still remains ... I still find Christians in flash houses driving flash cars difficult to comprehend. It is an instinct. To this day I try to keep India's poor looking over my shoulder as I make financial decisions - but sometimes greed overpowers compassion in the battle for my heart. It is not easy, is it?

These tensions which India birthed in my soul are the upsides of becoming an internationalist. I remember John Stott calling all Christians to be 'committed internationalists'. Count me in! He is right - and the MK life gave me a head start for this.

But there are downsides as well...My first 35 years were lived as an alien. No stay lasted longer than five years - until my 36th year. Furthermore virtually every shift was continental. Making friends became easy. It was keeping friends that was hard. Belonging anywhere meant belonging nowhere. An insecurity became a constant companion.

But the flowers of the garden still help me. Some are perennials - like homemade Kiwis who grow a beauty in the same location. Others are annuals - like transient MKs whose beauty blooms in different places.

On balance I wouldn't trade-in the MK life for anything. I am one of the ones who feel blessed. There are many who do not feel this way. And as the globe shrinks and its peoples spill out across multiple borders I wonder if the MK will become a bit of a prototype for the future.

nice chatting

Paul Windsor